Craziness!

My life, in spite of all the craziness, is going well.  But boy has there been craziness!  I feel like a surfer in the high waves at times – a wrong move and it’s wipe out.  But the good news is that in the Lord there is no real wipe out – not if your name is written in the Lamb’s Book of Life.

 I thought I had learned this lesson already, ha ha, to keep focused.  But it seems I am getting advanced training.  In the past, a lot of this would have gotten me down, but I have learned to look for God’s path through those winds and waves. 

In fact, I have had to refine my focus.  I chose, for many reasons, to eliminate a lot of the superfluous out of my life.  Doing that was hard in some respects, but I did it.  And I am glad I did.  Sometimes I think about venturing out again and when I do, and see a bunch of craziness, I just retreat to my simpler way of looking at things.

The ministry world is going crazy.  And since I am in ministry too, that means something. 

Oh, not everyone, thank God, but a bunch.  People that I have loved, honored and looked up to as good have wild and crazy things going on.  All over the place!  Part of it I know is realizing that the baton is being passed to us as the new older generation.  We are the ones, at my age, who are becoming the elder saints.  And because of that, we are seeing the human frailties that affect so many.

When we are young, we put these elders up on pedastals and give them a type of God-status, because they are our leaders and we are to respect them.  And we were able to – at least I was able to.  But as I mature in years, and get to know more and more, the more I see that I wish I didn’t have to see.

But this is also a faith test!  This whole life is a test!  I wish I could relax, but I don’t see that for this life.  I have peaceful moments and places and friends and for all those I am so grateful.   Compared to many, I have A LOT to be thankful for!

You can get stuck in the mindset of groups of people.  But after it being good for so long, suddenly it’s not.  Well, depending on the circumstance, I’d have to qualify that, but I am speaking generally as a trend.  I see God shifting me and as one who likes to nest, it’s been work for me to cooperate with it.  But honestly, I feel I am doing better than I ever have done in the past with this shift.  I am relaxing more.

 Part of it was learning to give up the wrong soul ties of unbelief and attitudes.  I am not saying that to elevate myself in anyway but I am speaking about an internal work in me.  In the last two years I have had my literal life on the line and and I take things much more seriously.  What thoughts come into my head that affect me must be strictly monitored!

I was diagnosed with terminal cancer but all my reports are coming back clear!  Hallelujah!!!  At my check up last month, after CTs and blood work and other tests, (and no chemo), my nice but skeptical doctor said I was doing remarkable.  Tears come to my eyes as I thank the Lord for that. 

It’s been a witness, but also a personal journey.  I have had a lot of prayer, I have worked to improve my diet, but more than anything, I sought the Lord as my Healer – because He is a Healer!  If someone asked me, “Pam, what did you do?”  I would answer that I looked to Jesus as my Healer because He is a Healer!

There was nothing I could do beyond reasonableness to “fix” this.  And I don’t think I got this out of rebellion.  I  honestly think God used it to make me focus more on Him and His will for my life.  It’s a personal journey, like it or not and it’s not about what everyone else thinks!

When you get diagnosed with cancer – and I write this because of the people that also might be facing this too – it feels like someone is pointing a gun at you and they are saying, “I am going to shoot you, and you are going to die, but not right away and it is going to hurt a lot.”  You know some things just happen but I call this the terrorism of the diagnosis.

People talk to you like you are thinking normally but your mind is in survival mode and you are rethinking your attitude about your future in a big way!  But in my prayers of seeking the Lord, I heard Him tell me that it was not about what type of time I had left but that my life was in His Hands and that is what mattered.  And I felt led not to do chemo.  (A friend of mine did who had stage 4, and he is doing well!  Another miracle!)  But we both sought the Lord.

So as I meditated on Him, I knew – because thank God I had been taught – even with being persecuted for it – that Jesus is a Healer.  So if my God is a Healer, then He wants healing for me, because He is a good God and He does not change.  And I am really sorry if someone doesn’t like that, ha ha, but they can have my burdens and deal with them for themselves if they think they can do things better!

But I am going to stick with my path of life.  In the midst of dealing with all that, I was dealing with other stuff too, and I think everybody has “stuff” they deal with.  But there was some pretty rough stuff.  But again, the Lord was telling me that the focus was to be upon Him.

Through this process, I was surprised at some of the things He said to let go of and surprised at some of the things He said to look into.   I had to close down some ministry avenues and look to others, but the others have proved to have more life for me.  In the beginning I did not realize that, but can see it much clearer now looking back.

More and more I am am learning to “go with the flow” of God and not try to force things.  I can stand for things, but I can’t force things.  In my zeal, like so many, I used to want to force a lot of things.  But I have to say that I have learned more how to let go and let God, and hold on.  That sounds funny, but you have to hear it in the Spirit.

I have to hold on to the things I know are right.  I have to let go of the things that are not, and I have to be more flexible in allowing God to adjust things.  With that heart in mind, I believe I am sensing more when He is saying “yes” and “no, not a good idea” to other things.  And I am finding life!

It is even harder for me is to observe the mistakes of people I love.  I can’t do anything about it!  All I can do is be who I am.  And I will be who I am because nothing else works.  And I have realized that being who I am, in Him, is the best thing I can do.  Because if God can position people where HE wants to position them, then He can move, by His Spirit, the way HE wants to move.

I often read the news on the internet and other places and things seem crazy!  Especially in the church.  Respected people are no longer respected like they used to be.  But of course, many still are respected, and what makes for respect? 

When I was diagnosed as terminal, many people immediately began to write me off.  But you know, we are all terminal!  We just have a short space in this life and then we move on, but what to?  It pays to get to know your God.

 But some, many in fact, have really rejoiced at my recovery.  Some are wide-eyed that God would do such a thing, but He will!  There is a path of life.  The Lord is your Shepherd and He will lead and guide you.

I think people make the mistake of wanting a majestic finish.  It may not be so majestic, but it can be Life.  And that Life has a majesty all of its own.  Internal eternal life can make you very happy.  And it’s a sure thing.

We are prepared for the times to come.  And if we are called to be God’s then we all have a ministry.  It may not have a shingle on the door announcing “who you are” but it is there in your soul.  You can hear “I am His.”

Life can get crazy.  If the foundations be destroyed, what can the righteous do?  But the foundations are still sure in God.  Don’t be fooled by those who say He doesn’t matter or that His Book is not for today.  It is.  He holds the words to eternal life.

Blessings to you~

Pam

A New Business

I started a new business recently and I am excited about it.  I am for anything that makes your life and your health better and this is all about nutritional supplements.  I had no idea that the food industry was altering our food as much as they are!

 For years it seemed I was surrounded by “health food nuts.”  You know, the kind that when you go out to eat all they talk about is what’s healthy and what is not, when all the time I am trying to enjoy my fried chicken, mashed potatoes and green beans with my eye on the chocolate pie!

But I did see one friend who had Lupus (early 90’s) make a DRAMATIC comeback when she got very strict with her diet and took a lot of barley green.  She became a praise dancer and took everyone’s breath away when she danced.

So my brain retained that info and then after a cancer diagnosis and surgery in my own life, suddenly I became more “food concious.”  My diet definitely let go of most of the junk food and diet drinks, and you always feel better after that.

I have been blessed with good follow up reports after a year and a half – and I thank GOD for that – but I still like to eat!  And beccause of all the reports on the news now about how America is more obese than ever before, I do know that some of that is lower activity levels but I do think there is more to it than that.

After learning how companies strip and alter foods for mass production – not to mention  all the chemicals and insecticides they add and use – it started making sense to ME that people are eating more now but receiving less!  And that is why in a short time they are hungry again after a full meal.  Maybe we aren’t getting all the nutrition that we need!

I just wanted to cater to my cells because my doctor told me that the cancer cells I had were cells that did not slough off properly but mutated.  So that told ME to cater to my cells so they would function as normally as possible.  In this society, that is hard which is one reason why I think so many do battle with it.

So when a friend here started a nutrition supplement company, I joined in to get the barley formula at a discount.  But I found I liked some of the other products too. 

So now I am ready to get in the business more – as the market place seems to be where ministry is going these days – and take the good news there!  I am still a bit new at it but have started my first website on it at www.LivingHealthyFood.com

More websites will be coming soon and I am excited about what I am learning. 

I like the core group of people here and have seen the personal lives of many here change for the better.  God is doing something in the market place.  I am praying for others to be blessed too because there has been a real oppression of many in the area of finances and health.  They are the top two prayer requests!

Church is not supposed to be a show case for “perfect” Christians or even “almost perfect” Christians.  It’s really not supposed to be a showcase at all!!  Yes, it is supposed to be a hospital of sorts to the needy but it should be about finding the Presence of God and that is what has been missing and “altered” in way too many churches.  They have become social clubs or society clubs and Jesus is not there.

If you ever really met Jesus, you know when He is there and when He is not.  If you go home no different from being in a service, then maybe He was not really there!

God seems to be in the highways and byways now looking for people to come into His gatherings.  He is calling to His people to find THE REAL THING.  It’s not in the celebrated buildings as much as it is among the common man.

I think the buildings used to stand for something good but we got sidetracked along the way.  Many churches wanted your money but didn’t really want to bless you or your business!  Too many churches took money from people for years and then when their own had a problem, they were not there for them.  Now that is a SAD story!

Celebrity is not more important than the Love of Christ.  And the churches are not supposed to be an “institution” but a family.  In many places you can find that family.  Institutions can do good works but they are not the same as the living Body of Christ.  I think God wants to bless people in new ways.

 Many may scream about it but His sheep HEAR His Voice.  That is a big SELAH!

Injustice is Ugly – Ask the flowers

This morning as I went out to water my little garden outside, I came upon nature’s injustice.  I have some canna lilies about to bloom soon but noticed that the plant has an enemy.  It took me a few days to realize how this insidious enemy was working!

From quick appearances, things looked okay, but after looking a bit, something didn’t seem right.  Some of the leaves had trouble opening and some leaves would try to come in under those and either not succeed or got a little warped in the process.

While this may be just a little garden problem, the Lord spoke to me prophetically through it.  Apparently there are some bugs who seal the leaves shut so that they cannot open and then then plant their seeds inside.  The seals are so transparent that you hardly see them!

I enhanced the photos a bit so you could:

    

As you can see in the newer leaves, the spider web looking binding is almost transparent.

Plants are really very strong!  They can overcome a lot of resistance!  But these poor plants really struggled to let their life come through these hard odds.

With even effort on my part, as I opened the seals, this is what I found – it’s gross!  Apparently that black junk is seeds or eggs of some kind.

As I grieved for the plant, I really felt the Lord speak to me that many of His people are bound the same way.  They are trying to bloom and blossom but they are hindered.  I really felt a pain inside about it.

The leaves should unfold naturally like this and then new leaves come forth from the center of that.  They are generations.

You can see how naturally the leaves should open and victims in the broken off leaves there below.  Inside as one leaf opens, a new leaf is forming and eventually a beautiful flower will blossom.

This sealing is hindering the beautiful plant God intended.  Many should be unfolding in their beauty but there are enemies hindering what God has intended.

What do I do about that?  Well obviously if I want to see my canna lillies prosper, I will need to study up on this – seek and find an answer.  My intercession can make a difference!  I must tend my plants!  I must know not to be deceived but to inspect closely.

Someone earlier today told me that “a curse causeless will not alight,” quoting a Bible verse in Proverbs.  But since the fall of man, all creation has been dealing with curses.  It’s just that some agree with them and some agree against them! 

We can feel helpless – and taken advantage of – and sometimes we are!  The devil is a devil!  We can only do the best we can and leave the rest to God.  He ultimately prevails.

UPDATE:  After ministry, this is what my garden produced:

Ministry is important!

Father’s Blessing!

Today is Father’s Day and our heavenly Father gave us a heavenly treat tonight at our home groups.  Ron and Sherry Ravenscroft are good friends with Maurice Sklar and he offered a concert for their friends in the area.  Other great musicians were also there and played, too, and God ministered much love and healings and ministry.  I will enclose a few pictures to record the joy. 

Britt on the piano, playing classics

Maurice with Ron and Sherry

  Some of the guests there: Gordon & Laura Tessler, Art & Ann Roundtree, Carolyn Thomas, Bernita Conway, others

 
Maurice and John Beall in classical duet

Maurice and Britt after playing together.

Life is Big

The Lord blessed me with a great faith in His Resurrection.  He IS the Resurrection and the Life!  I went to a funeral once where they did not say that – it was Jewish – and oh the difference it made!  As a Christian I just always took those words for granted in the mourning – but there is a God who is bigger than this life and He has a dwelling place!

Death is Satan’s glory.  All forms of it, leading up to it, the whole design there is to make you not believe in God.  Sometimes it’s pretty effective.  But even faith is greater and this world was not meant for our total control.   We couldn’t do anything like it if we tried!  It’s amazing that we get the powers that we do, as much as we mess things up.

But while we have plenty of reasons to worry in our limitations, God is not worried at all!  We get to choose Life.  Choosing Life is bigger than walking down an aisle of some church building.  It’s bigger than singing in the choir or even preaching.  Life is Big.

Choosing life is bigger than a bunch of rules.  And it’s bigger than doing your own thing!  There is a Spirit to choosing Life.  I know a lot of so called Christians who carry a lot of death in them.  I know some who are very indifferent to God’s Plan for man.

Even Proverbs says that a good man cares for his animals.  A good man knows right from wrong.  He cares about the land.  A good man who knows God knows how to hear from God and make his voice heard.  Some of the most humble expressions is incredibly powerful in God.

A good man knows how to cooperate with God in His Plan.  A good man values others.  He can prefer others without losing himself in the mix.  There is so much bad doctrine today on losing yourself and dying to the flesh and not having any rights of your own.  It never causes you to find Life!  It’s satanic because it wipes you out, as if you weren’t in the Plan.  It devalues the work done on the Cross.  There is a way to do that that lives Life but many can’t see it.

If Jesus died to save sinners and such a one was me, then there was a reason.   Another great evil is those who think they are above others.  They feel they are “the chosen” and have been elected to speak into everyone else’s life as the sovereign Voice of God.  They make all of us sick!  They got a little enlightenment and it is exposing their pride.

 When you worry about others more than you worry about your own relationship with God, there is a problem.  We all have “our things” that we have to work out in this life, but Life is Big.  And you are either with God’s program for good, or you aren’t.  It’s not about your intellect.  That is a tool for your spirit. 

When you want to destroy other people for selfish ambition, when you want to limit other people for selfish gain, there is a problem.  And when you let other people demean you and defile you and limit your walk with others and God – who is Life – there is a problem!!!

Life is good.  Death is bad.  But one of my favorite verses out of the Living Bible in Job says:  “Could God govern if He hated justice?”  Life will rule!  And apparently from the Bible I read, He will eliminate people who eliminate Life.  Or He will take them on to a better place.  He can do that and He does.

Now I hope you don’t think this means I am a plant worshipper.  But if you understand the eco-system, which I believe even goes into the heavens, there is a Plan going on that supports Life.  When I consider it all, I need a God!!!

Since I have a brain and somewhat of an education, and a body that still can move around somewhat, and some life tools, I can still make a difference, just as you who are reading this can.  I am not going to be willingly put in a box that offers no reward of the bigger Life of God.   Many have wanted to parent me, but only because it makes “them” feel more comfortable.  They just wanted to channel my energy.

When some folks really insisit, I let them do it for a season (within reason) just to see if they offer something more.  To date, they haven’t.  Part of that is because they don’t see what God put in me.  They see the places where I willingly hold back and they think I am weak.   When I speak to them of Life things, they don’t understand.  His sheep hear His Voice, right?  And another they will not follow.  I have invested in wrong things but I got something out of the investing because of the spirit behind it.

People do respond to God different ways and I am not trying to tell anyone else how to do that.  It’s a choice.  Christians are charged with giving the good news, but as the expression goes, “You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink!”

Jesus said there are some who KNOW what they do and it isn’t Him.  Many today feel the freedom to game play with the things of God.  Our society has become very lax and history does not record pleasant things for those who do that.  But only God can give the wake up call.

Will the real Jesus please stand up?  I believe He will.  And it will be a soul stirring work, but I really believe He is tearing down the current structure – and it’s messy! – to establish the true.  Just like revamping an old house, a lot of basic things need to be gutted and replaced but the foundation of the Plan still holds.  We are the parts, and if found worthy, we will be placed back into the building when it’s redone.  The rejoicing will be great when our “parts” work!

Right now, we can’t make them “work.”  Sometimes we are put to the side until it’s time to re-enter the Plan in ways where things will function effectively.  Life is big and the more you see that, the more you can find your functionality.  There is a pile of stuff that is going to be burned.  Like rotten food in the refrigerator that once was good, it’s going to be thrown out.  Your spirit man must grow.  If it doesn’t, then you have limitations.

Life is big.  Fly high.  Enjoy it in the true and Living (!) God.  I am!

Unhealthy Soul Ties

I am a sucker sometimes for affection.  I like giving and receiving nurture.  But sometimes relationships turn out to be booby traps!  Since it has happened more than once in my life, there are still things I need to figure out.

Usually I get this creeping feeling that something is not right.  Something is not true.  On the surface it looks that way but on the back side, it’s another.   I’ve seen way too many people manipulate people to the point that it makes me cynical.  I hate that.  I have really backed off of a lot of things over that.

 Even the “body of Christ” seems full of these kind of people.  You believe that you are united in a cause only to become (1) their slave or (2) their clone.  Of course Jesus warned that there are wheat and tares.  The tares are those that look like the truth but really aren’t.

Freedom is a precious thing – not only physical freedom but also psychological freedom.   The soul has need to express itself.  It also needs to have self control in order to get along with others.  The Body of Christ has standards that unite it in One Cause, and that Cause is Jesus, and His will.

He is a Spirit and so discerning the Spirit becomes the challenge when you find you have to fight off the controlling spirits of others.   First you feel smothered and then you feel managed and then you find that you are manipulated against your will.  Some have more limitations on you than others do, but will is revealed.

It all manifests in the negative words of others, and sometimes actions, but you don’t always hear those words or realize it right away.  You sense head games and then you see strange fruit and life isn’t what you thought it was!  All you can do is do your best to get away from it and then pray the backlash won’t be too bad.  I have experienced some bad backlash before.

Sometimes it’s a job, like a boss or co-worker, sometimes it’s a good friend (you thought) or even a fellow church member.  Sometimes it’s family members!  That is even more challenging.  I have seen people totally sell their minds out to someone else. 

But to me, Love is about choice.  It’s about having your own identity and being able to cherish that in the wonder of its creation.  There are things in this life that want to steal that.  I grew up with a lot of freedom that allowed me to discover who I was.  Some people have to really fight for theirs.

But once you ever taste and know it, you can’t go back and say something is better when it isn’t.  There are con jobs that try to make you say giving up all your rights is right - some of those  followed Jim Jones and drank poison Kool-Aid doing that – others have done similar things – but they didn’t place a value on their own lives.

When I met God, He met me where I was the real me!  And He has been faithful to that.  So I have trouble when people try to manage me and I find they are unhealthy soul ties that I have to break off.  I find that God listens and honors what I have to say.  I am never demeaned as a person, even if I am not right.  Some violent spirits are just that!

Circumstances may change my mind to things but the Spirit has always honored my free will to choose.  I believe God honors the soul.  That’s why He wants to save it!  He meets you where you see it His way.  A Spiritual transaction takes place and you know you are blessed.  Even cherished.

There are a lot of heartaches in church lives.  But the true and lasting deliverances that I have seen in it have been because people were given the true freedom to be who they are and make a choice.  Take away the choice, take away the freedom, and the deliverance is only a facade.

I’ve seen people healed of many things, including cancer.  I’ve seen people throw off oppressions.  It all comes from making peace with God and finding the acceptance of yourself in Him.  His will for you is good!

When you no longer have to manage other people to find peace, you have true peace.  I get sick of people trying to manage my life because of the gifts they see that they want for themselves.

 The only real Manager is God and He seems pretty free!  I recently had a prayer meeting going on – seemed to be going well – when suddenly in the middle of fervant praying a person stopped the whole proceedings to say they didn’t believe God liked the way we were praying.  Never mind that He had been answering the prayers!

Not wanting to make a bigger scene, I just gave the rest of the meeting over to them to prove their points.  I wasn’t impressed.  Later they just took our whole program down the road, behind the scenes of course.  I just happened to be at a place where I found out it was going on.

What can  you do?  Just give it to God.   I didn’t start the thing, I didn’t end the thing – He did.  But it does make you cynical about love in the Body.  Where is the integrity?  I was offered to come be a part, but the Spirit strongly told me no.  It was about the “hill people” as one person said – those on the top of the hill lording it over those on the bottom.  Not the true Body!

Thank goodness not every person is like that!  But there is a lot of quiet desperation these days, and frustration.  We are at that place where we can only wait on God and He will move.  I just dread the ones who latch on and defile it.  I have seen it way too often.

I have wondered if every positive force has to have a negative force to counteract it for energy.  Maybe so.  If you want to be in the cutting edge, it’s something I guess you have to understand.  I just know that I have seen more of the negative than I want to!

I am tired of the things that defile and make me lose heart.  So many say have the solutions that don’t turn out to be the solution at all.  But I do have peace with God, so I will wait on Him there.  All is well.

The Call to Ministry

People think the call to ministry is a great thing.  They think it is a place of great favor, and in some ways you can look at it like that, IF you love God!

But ministry is hard and often thankless.  If you are doing it for the people, you will burn out for sure.  If you are doing it for God, you may hang in there.

People make incredible demands on you.  They want you to speak for God, to have favor with Him, and perform upon demand.  They don’t always see ministry as a relationship, but as a skill or resource they can utilize at the best bargain or price.

They want YOU to  hold back the tide of evil.  They want YOU to make their life easier and more prosperous.   And they don’t care too much if you are poor, in fact, that mindset often works real well for some (many).

They want YOU to make their relatives or friends or enemies to DO what THEY want.  They want YOUR PRAYERS to make the sick well or their bad situation to get better or their wayward loved ones to be rescued.

And if you knock yourself out for them, is their any reward for you?  Often, not much at all.  They want to define you, too, and put you in the box of THEIR liking.  And if you get out of that box, they will surely castigate you as not being right – they will judge you.

You will deal with selfishness head on.  They will work often to con you.  They will use you as a tool against others.   They will talk behind your back to make you the same or less than them, while using your efforts to gain their advantage.  They will want you to fight their battles while they hide behind your back.

If you are not doing ministry for God, you will bail out.  If you are doing it to be seen or to gain advantage, you better be skilled in the ways of the world because that is how you will have to compete.  And compete you will!

It’s true that some ministers do things wrong and it’s very true that some are pure con artists.  People will argue over that one, as they will like the ones who “tickle their ears” and tell them what they want or even need to hear.  It’s not hard to get a war going or escalated in the “religious” camp!

Some imitate the true and act like politicians, smooth and polished. 

But if you are called to ministry by God for God, it can be a very lonely, painful walk.  You will know that not all your rewards are here on this earth!  You will see your own failures!

If you are doing it for any other reason than God, you may get discouraged.

People love the prophecies that they will lead and do great things for God.  They can’t wait for someone to open the door for them!  They don’t realize that they are the door!  People want what YOU have!  They want to feed off of you. 

But if you really want to do great things FOR God, you will get crucified.

The Message

The first of the month is often the better part of the month – can some of you relate to that?

My little kitty baby is recovering marvelously from her fall out of the tree.  Praise the Lord.

You know, or maybe you don’t, it becomes very hard to post on the internet.  The nutbirds and people who want to bring other people down are out there en masse. 

I have a chatroom but have to consider if I am going to keep that again because of the crazies who want to post their garbage.  We have had such good times in there – with worship, prayer, salvations, ministry and online friendships, but the enemy “just has” to spoil it all…

When I see all the abuse that is out there now, not just on the internet but in the world at large, I get convinced at times that God has lifted His Spirit from this nation.  People can find little conclaves of believers but that is not always the easiest thing for people to do.

Before when ministers would say “Just find a church and get faithful,”  they had no idea where some people could end up!  There is a lot of abuse out there and people have their guards up.  Even the media has joined in on the bandwagon.

Because of things I have gone through, I am personally not selling my soul out to an organization.  While I have MANY friends in the Lord, I have yet to find an organization that I am giving my soul to.  Now THAT DOES NOT MEAN that I will not support organizations or go to church!  It just means I am not giving them my soul.  Some ask for it.

There is a difference.  Not many try to think like the Lord does, but I do wonder if He has not lifted His Spirit from things that bear His Name because they don’t represent Him.

In Amos, He says:

21 ”I hate, I despise your feast days, and I do not savor your sacred assemblies.
22 Though you offer Me burnt offerings and your grain offerings, I will not accept them, nor will I regard your fattened peace offerings.
23 Take away from Me the noise of your songs, for I will not hear the melody of your stringed instruments.
24 But let justice run down like water, and righteousness like a mighty stream.
Amos 5:21-24 (NKJ)

I really think that is His message today to many.   We have lost the fear of the Lord in many respects.  Some have never known it.  Today people do not know how to act in church.  Sometimes not anywhere! 

Some think God’s meetings are a democracy.  While everyone should be able to share in some form or fashion, many do not discern Spiritual order.  There is a challenging line between God’s order and freedom. 

I don’t have all the solutions, but I do know order and Godliness when I see it.  We are just in end times where things are polarizing.  Add ignorance in the midst of that and you have some big challenges.

Jeremiah talked about a land that was not sown.

1 Moreover the word of the LORD came to me, saying,
2 ”Go and cry in the hearing of Jerusalem, saying, ‘Thus says the LORD: “I remember you, the kindness of your youth, the love of your betrothal, when you went after Me in the wilderness, in a land not sown.
3 Israel was holiness to the LORD, the firstfruits of His increase. All that devour him will offend; disaster will come upon them,” says the LORD.’ “
Jeremiah 2:1-3 (NKJ)

 I believe we are coming to a time like that again.  There are people who know the Lord but we are as if we are in a land not sown with the Gospel.  Many are believing for God to send Revival and I pray that He does.  You see outbreaks of it here and there for a season, but nothing that He is sustaining without the efforts of men.

God rewards the righteous!  I guess I am spoiled because I have been in meetings and places where His Spirit truly dominated.  It happened because He could work with men.  When people believe God is a democracy, it invites the spirit of competition and God cannot work with that.  It’s not how He does it. 

Even groups compete with other groups.  People fight over who is the best leader and so man is seeing man and is blind to the Spirit in the unseen.  Balaam was there, you know…. riding along until God opened his eyes to see the angel with the sword.  The donkey saw better than he did!  And God gave it a voice!  (Numbers 22)  It’s a good story.

And Balaam knew the Lord, but had departed, and didn’t become a prophet who was wrong, but in the end became a false prophet.  The ways of the world attracted him to the point of Spiritual death it seems.

Do you have eyes to see what the Lord is doing or do you only see what man is doing?  God is doing some incredible things today!  Even though I have some personal discouragement,  I am not faithless to what I see and know that God is doing.  I am really excited to see the groundwork He is laying through many people – things He has shown me in times past are happening before my eyes.

It is an exciting day in which to live.  It’s also a season of a lot trials, but praise God, we win because He does!

A better day!

God is good.  We had such a sweet time of joy and fellowship yesterday.  I got to hold the newest little Moravian Falls baby and we could not have had better weather.  Two guitars, a mandolin and a harmonica played the most pleasant music, and we sometimes sang to the tunes.  As it grew darker, the moon acted like a big light bulb in the sky, cascading soft light over the mountain ranges to make a really serene view.  All that while we are munching on our s’mores. 

In case you don’t know what those are, they are roasted marshmellows between layers of graham crackers and chocolate.  Yummm.  The kids had great fun helping with those!  We had a little prayer, lots of fun and it was one of my better holidays to remember!

Sasha is walking even more today.  I may not have to take her to the vet after all!  What a present from God!  He can heal!  I am so grateful.

A friend of mine in Kansas City needs prayer.  Jennifer is recovering from colon cancer surgery. 

I keep hearing report after report as to how diet seriously affects our bodies.  Of course that is logical to some degree, but MANY of the health food products are really helping people.  As a cancer survivor myself (yea!!!!) I know certain things have helped me.

Doctors removed all they could they said and said the rest was just a matter of time.  That’s a report that is fun to live with!  But it’s not the final report!  When I asked my surgeon what causes this cancer, he said they were cells that failed to slough off as they were supposed to. 

That was a real key to me that I needed to tend my cells and a year later now, without doing chemo, my results have still come back clear.  Chemo works to kill the fast growing cells in your body, which is why people lose their hair and have other reactions, including lowering your white blood cells which fight off infection.

I just could not see doing that to my system, especially since I had felt so bad anyway.  So I cut out the junk food and aspartame and juiced and worked to eat the whole grains and more greens, fresh fruits and vegetables.  I have taken supplements too and so far so good!  And it’s helped!

The new energy caused me to do too much too soon and I got an incision hernia which had to be repaired, and while I am still healing from the surgeries – my stomach was rearranged through all that - I am doing much better as I regain my strength and stomach muscles.  It’s amazing how much you use those, for everything it seems like.

Anyway I have a testimony now of the great grace of God for healing what I was told was terminal.   And joyfully I am not the only one.  I have a friend who did chemo, and he is doing well now too!

You never take life for granted after going through that.  When you get the diagnosis, it’s like someone has a gun pointed at you and says they are going to shoot,  just not immediately, and it’s going to hurt.  You find out if  you are ready to die.  I was ready.  My faith was intact, and that is thanks to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ who rose from the dead.  I had peace.

But who wants to suffer or die?  That’s why Jesus works, with Him you never die.  He is there and He will take you through and He is a wonderful witness and comfort to your soul.  I knew I would see my family and loved ones again that had gone on.

But I still felt there were things for me to do here!  I was surrounded by a lot of love and prayers.  I really saw my friends in a way that I had never seen before – especially through their Christian love.  But as the tests came back “clear”, there was a real burden lifted.

Maybe I will write a book on it one day.  Anyway, I have things to rejoice about!  I hope you have a good day!

Blessings,

Pam

A little more progress

For those of you who are keeping up with this, a little more good news!

I saw Sasha walking a short distance on all fours!  It was slow and when she saw me, she laid down and meowed real loud, but I was weeping for joy.  I really see healing in sight now for her!  Thank you Jesus!

Just a little update for those who care.      >>^.`.^<<